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.Wednesday, December 26, 2007 ' 6:42 pm Y

im back after ages i know
this is an attempt to revive my blog
going to update about something that happened like 2 weeks ago
OBS!!
its going to be one heck of a long post

DAY 1
reached 3rd. saw azizah at taxi stand with her mum
waited for everyone. the 'earliest' was the organiser
sheesh luh that woman
then went to jetty
found out was going to be alone in NILA UTAMA!
was super sad luh. then wanted to just go home
so set off to ubin
then sat according to groups
met li jing. we sat and talked and talked
we thought we were the only two girls in the group
because we kept seeing boys join our group. no girls
then did admin stuff
instructor was gek fong called her fongfong(:
played ice breakers, packed rations, and store
then did belaying, tent-pitching and trust fall
then was lunch. washed up and dinner we were laughing like gila people. rightt??((:
then was lights out i guess
i couldn't sleep. someone hugged me until i couldnt breathe. i thought i was dying -_-

DAY 2
woke up at like 4 i think
kiasu luh utama
then had pt with battuta (im fated to be with dearie)
it was damn sian luh. pumping with thighs down -_-
then breakfast
morning circle. waited for alde. fongfong's reaction when he came was funny HAHAH
kayaking(: did with alicia. in a triyak =/
nearly died. 3 hrs =X
but did capsize drill((: so fun
the paddle got caught in between my legs hehh
weirdd
had to change to dry clothes and have lunch
edmund and me had to meet fongfong before the rest of the grp
apparently we were made spokespersons of utama =/
know why me?cuz i smile a lot -_-"
did double dangle duo with edmund
dont underestimate that skinny guy. haha
then PM came. nearly pee-ed in my pants
the other utama people kept making fun of me and edmund
LUCKILY, the PM dint stop at our station ahaha
then we had to attend the 40th anniversary of obs
we just stood there and wasted our time to clap for PM
saw grace fu. she actually recognises me. interesting
then trekked back to camp 2
dinner and sleep
i was crusheddd -looks at ET

DAY 3
woke up to pack backpack
the freaking guys dint wake up and made fun of me when i tried to wake them up =/
we were supposed to wake up at 4.30, they only did at 5!!
i was carrying the food and mess tins with jas and ET
afiq offered to help carry the pot for me. thanks (:
morning pt, jogging and cheering
me and debbie were like the only 2 voices audible
at that point, i really missed cedarnp
then we had breakfast and trekking
they made me navigator =/ i dragged alde along. haha
i led them to the wrong place. sorry utama =/
then it rained
someone dint have poncho so we headed back to campsite
thought we sure lose to battuta but turns out they had to come back cuz of heavy rain
played teambuilding games
had the lmsc one the one on chairs but we dint have chairs
at first debbie still remembered the trick in the end she couldn't figure out and i did(: haha
i liked the taptap game
so funn(: haha
earned all 16 wristbands (which i wear everyday) then trekked to camp 1
did indoor high elements
i did the rock climbing thingy
our group has like manymany monkeys, namely edmund, afiq, alde and jonathon
they climbed some other thing like supersuper fast luhh =X
sea ex briefing. were told that we'd kayak for 10 hours. i wanted to just die cannn
went to cookhouse for dinner
heaven sia. gerekk
then slacked while packing for sea ex
slept in the mph
initially i was in fbts but i brought trackpants for something to hug
but because it was damnn cold, i ended up wearing my trackpants
i was shivering so bad that the person beside me freaked out

DAY 4
woke up at 4-5 i cant rmbr to pack bags and pack up ponchos
me and koko did it again(:
morning pt. played some captain's on board game. utama conquered the game
the last ten were mostly the utama people. i gave up when it was the last ten. too scared already. hahah
breakfast. mad uh. i never ate fried noodles that fast before. it was also the first time i drank milo in the morning. alot at that lucky i dint have a bad reaction =X
went for sea ex. was in kayak with jun wei and alde(:
they paddled damn fast okayyy
i nearly died. we kayaked around pulau ubin okayy. cool right?
leg cramps occured like manymany times
lunched in the middle of the sea((:
i hated toilet breaks. so gross
lucky noone shit -squirms
we reached early. 7 hours of kayaking
then we had like forever to unpack backpacks, pack our bags and bathe
i was so giddy i couldn't walk. felt like i was on the kayak =/ sucked
it was a pitiful moment for afiq -giggles
then we bathed in the dark. so scary. you never know what's lurking around
then had dinner. APPLE CRUMBLE
fongfong said im gentle. funny =X
i was the apple cutter haha
zack was funny
'i want to learn and cook for HER'
i laughed so hard my tummy hurt (x
then the melayus had a fun way of eating the maggi 10 packets
something funny happened. minyak kapak = minyak wangi
inside joke HAHA. i still laugh my head off when i think about it
then it was sleep time
it was the best sleep i had in forever

DAY 5
woke up 4.30 to wash ponchos and tents
was so fun ahhaa
then had morning pt. veryyy fun
then breakfast. digestive biscuits with jam and peanut butter rocks(: beats eating flattened bread. YUCKK
then store check! we didn't lose ANYTHING! nila utama is a responsible watch(:
then had to reluctantly change to wet attire
EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED
i will never forget that
then jetty jump. i hated the fishes. gross
only me, alde, li jing and others managed to emerge without cuts
the rest were all bloody from the barnacles. i nearly died
then changed back to dry attire
spent last moments on the pontoon( i dont know how to spell)
we laid on each others' tummy and embraced the sounds of nature in ubin
most slept. i really did enjoy the sounds of the waves the birds and all
i miss ubin already
then cert presentation. mine was with ET. hugged
then reunited with my lovely hp
did evaluation form, got watch photos
then did souvenir shopping. short of cash =X
woops. borrowed from ET. ice cream(:
was told the 'i want to go home story'
i teared. hehh. so nice luhh.
then took ferry sat with ET to punggol jetty
last cheer with nila utama
said our last goodbyes. hugged the girls. me and ET were getting emotional

overall obs was really great. im thankful i dint get to be in the same group as sirius because i was able to make friends better
i hope we stay in touch and have outings soon
i miss utama hell alot. in just 5 days we bonded so much
i think if we had to stay together for another few more days, we would sure be like family
i will miss the laughs we had, thanks to aizat, alde, izzati, farhan and afiq for making me laugh so much
i'll never forget the days we spent together. it was such a memorable experience
i want an outing soon! i miss all of utama like damn alot damn it

I MISS NILA UTAMA! ):
I MISS ET
I MISS LI JING
I MISS JASLINE
I MISS ALICIA
I MISS AARON
I MISS JONATHAN
I MISS CHENG TUAN
I MISS RUI YEN
I MISS JUN WEI
I MISS EDMUND
I MISS KOKO
I MISS FARHAN
I MISS AFIQ
I MISS AIZAT
I MISS ALDE

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i am gifted thing tmr. i have decided to sit with the lovely rasyiqah
i don't even know what time it is all i know is that i have to wake up early
what i'm still doing here i don't know =/

school's starting in like a week. i don't want it to come
i don't want o's. i'm scared that i will end up like this year
being scared out of my guts but not doing anything about it
that's what i'm doing now
i have yet to complete 20% of my holiday homework and im still here at 2 am
tell me im stupid

im thankful i've got her though
always there to push me to do things
i love my mummy! i may sound crazy but i love her naggings and attempts to make me laugh
i can't wait for saturday. i hope it really works out this time
supposed to go out today but not fated
mummy! I LOVE YOU<3>

i hate being told what to do
i hate others making decisions for me
i hate missing an opportunity of a lifetime because of you
i hate you

i know i said before that i didn't want in. i dont know why but i finally want to be in. well, itd real sad to know that i can't commit. due to his ego. my results matter yeahh. but its only for a term. i still can catch up. fuck you luh. you made me cry more than i can even remember.

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