.Saturday, July 26, 2008 ' 10:38 am Y
quick recap (:12 july- house warming and MIK's spidey bday partythe people who came to do the housewarming, FREAKYwas preparing last minute party stuffs while the whole thing was going onkids were annoyingly cute. abusing the contents of my pencil box and allafter that was the party. endured through with the worst headache i've ever had and a high fever(:after everything, everyone stayed for the night and i was the first to slip awayy(x13 july - i do not wish to talk about this dreadful dayafter this, i have no idea what happened. my memort's failing on me ):all i know is i went out to buy the material for hari raya. splurged but its freaking glam. only got 2. not planning to go out much. was forced into going out for 2 days =( but its okay. family time =/21 july- RHD '08it was a freaking half day. and can you believe it, of all days for school to only have 2 periods of lessons, it just had to be PHYSICS =/it was a freaking mock test at that. annoyed me to bits. didn't really look forward to seeing her face anywaysspent the day taking pictures and stuff. oh sirius, we must've been freaking noisy (x but i don't care. i love you retards(:wore a sari my sis had that's GOLD((:mary came over to my place 'cause she left her keys at home. we were supposed to study but me being the pig i am, i slept(xthat's it for rhd. photos up soon(:22 july- well lets just say, expect the unexpected.it was a day that left me really wondering. was what i've done enough? i doubt it nowits just hard to articulate what one feels at times. i guess how we feel will not reach them. but there's nothing that can be doneits finally sunk in. it's all over. people change, people move on.so tell me, why am i still left behind?basically that was last weeki think =/i think i've been living my life day by day. not caring about the things that happen. prelims are in 14 days and i'm still somewhat not doing anything. i'm prepared for the worst now. i think =/the weekends were pretty much screwed. in an attempt to make someone's day, i ended up ruining mine. reading up on past memories, old letters and all. they say, 'people come and go and that's all part and parcel of life'. i know now that i'm one who takes too long to let people go and move on in things. i guess i never want to let go because i never really had many good friends or people who genuinely are there for me. so i never want to let go of anyone who impacts me a great deal. i really miss you. you meant the whole to me and you still do. but i know i'm nothing to you anymore. i know you must blame me for your o levels and all. i shouldn't have bothered you i know. i'm sorry love. i know i'll never find anyone who'll fill my life with joy as much as you did. i <3>your kid
♥AZRINAris