.Friday, May 01, 2009 ' 9:37 pm Y
okay, i'm back to update. i figured since it's going to be a month since my last update, i should update already. haha.
so, since the last time i updated, season had already started for the seniors, with the first match being against hwa chong (8-0), millenia (10-0), innova (12-0) and the recent match against temasek (12-0). the last match for the group matches will be against meridian. it won't be at home ground, so it'll be a little unfamiliar for us supporters. i've been extremely proud of the seniors and teammates playing in the matches. there have been times when i watch them play and wonder to myself whether in one year's time, i'll even be as good as them, and whether i can be a part of carrying on the legacy of vjsg. i'm kinda worried for the future as coach won't be with us next year to train us, and that after season ends, it'll be us year 1s who will be incharge, no longer the j2s. why is it that i didn't feel this much jitters when i was in cedarnp when we were about to take over, and that the anxious feeling is rather strong now.
okayokay. soccer aside, i'm already 17! damn, that feels freaking old. haha, anyways, the day started rather fine, with me replying texts all the way to school in the bus. i swear that like swallowed 2bucks from my prepaid. =/ after that reached school and the 5 sirius sang cedar-style bday song in the canteen and ran off (in an attempt to embarrass me, only everyone laughed at them). school on that day was really mundane. classmates gave me 3 pretty orange flowers, twinny gave me manymany things, and i LOVE your card (khai)riah :D. received quite a number of cards. teammates gave me a PINK notebook, that i love very much. well, thanks all. although it's quite some time ago, thanks for the wishes and presents. love everyone who remembered my bday (:
now i shall talk about school! in general, it SUCKS. homework is piling up so high, i'm drowning. i'm also getting more and more lost in classes, be it lit, econs or maths. i'm already stuck in econs remedial, which makes my monday suck (lessons end at 4.50) and my tuesday too (lessons end at 3.05, but econs remedial's from 4.15-4.45). let's just say that sometimes i feel like there's not enough time for me to even breathe. although i'm not say very busy, but i feel very lost at times, like as though i lost track of time, and i don't know what to do or what day it is. most of my days end with soccer, and i am grateful for that as it's something that i really enjoy doing. on thurs, i was talking to nicole and bing and i realised that i actually sleep more in vj then i cedar. as in, i had more late nights when i was in cedar than now. i guess that's why i'm so behind in work now as compared to then. there have been many instances when i felt like giving up, and just let go of everything and just head over to poly. trust me, i was tempted to do so. but i knew, that no matter how much i wanted it, i'd never be allowed to, and that i couldn't let go of vjsg. there had been many points where i regret my decision to come to vj, but i also realised that, had i not come to vj, i wouldn't have met the lovely vjsg girls, and the lovely friends in 09a14 that make my day everyday.
speaking of a14, i owe my dearest harilyn a post on her. i shall give you a paragraph k? (: okayokay, this girl here, is my dearest classmate. she's also my dear flea's cousin. she is the one who hears me complain and whine about being hungry and sleepy during lectures and tutorials, the one who lets me talk on and on about my countless ECs and she also lets me rant about my frustration during soccer, and studies and of course, when i'm damn pissed with a certain someone in class, she's always there. she also attempts to draw cartoon versions of my EC on my notes when i'm falling asleep to keep me awake. haha, she's real cute ain't she ? thanks for being such a dear, and i really promise i won't be so naggy, whiny and annoying to you anymore, or at least not as much. i'll always have sweets and food during lessons yeah? anyways, all the best for all your floorball matches. take care of yourself, rest well, don't overwork/exert yourself, and jangan sampai kena 2mins dua kali lagi eh, violent seyy. tsktsk. haha. lastly, remember that i'm always here if you need me, and i'm ever willing to help you with anything, if you need me to. AND, i'm determined to make you allow me to give you a hug soon. hhaaha, love you harilynnnnn <3
alright, that's all from me! i'll try to update again soon (: when i get photos from my cousin from our selambe(slumber) party ytd. it was HAVOC. hahaha, i shall go sleep soon. didn't get much sleep ytd. bye people. (:
♥AZRINAris