[i am trying not to tell you, but i want to]

ah, i can't believe myself. i keep telling myself i will study, i will study. i will do this, i will do that. but do i? no i don't. fuck luhh. i am seriously sick and tired of convincing myself there's still hope. i'm sick and tired of hearing people tell me time is running out. do i look like i'm incapable of seeing that for myself. and you, omg can you open your eyes widewide open, listen hard. you don't notice what's right in front of you. you densedense person, sighh (omg rasyiqahh, you are right D:) i should be studying but (YET AGAIN) i'm on the computer. goddamnit this is annoying, why don't i have the discipline to study? why can't i just be like you, who doesnt require much effort. why do i keep believing that i'll be able to get by without much effort. wake up azrina, you ain't no genius. stop living in that damn fantasy world of yours.

FUCK

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i know the post is disjointed. but wtf, pms kills the mental organisation hahaha, almost non-existant one uh.

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