.Monday, October 05, 2009 ' 2:49 pm Y
[the winner takes it all, the loser standing small]
okay, so promos are over, whatever right? it was over last friday. most, okay all papers were screwed, like i swear it'll be just nice to promote or slim chances ): anyways post promos was spent with debbie ((: looking for beachwear for that woman. she's damnnnnnnnn picky and indecisive, i swear HAHA. reached home close to 12 cause i smartly didn't bring my ezlink card that day, and had to take a super long bus ride home and a freaky walk home. attempted camping online all night long, but i crashed shortly after.
the weekends were open house then jb, for jalan raya there. omg, it was H-O-T! the perks of it all was spending the whole day with little adrianny, my adorable petite niece with the contagiously sweet smile and the prettiest eyes ever. she is such a gem, and i was obsessed with her the whole day. i didn't care that i didn't get duit raya cause people thought i was old cause i was taking care of all the little babies around. kids make me happy, and nothing will ever change that, i am very sure (:
i knew i was landing myself in this situation again, yet i did nothing to stop myself. i don't know what to do, what to say to you. for awhile there, i thought i was the luckiest girl around, now i am back in my state of self-pity all over again. yet again, i was fooled, deceived into thinking things would change. i am getting sick and tired of this, and i feel as though i should just give up. you have no idea how much i miss you right now.
♥AZRINAris